Do si do...

I am missing Avery and Grandpa today. Today has been four months since Avery passed, and one year since my Grandfathers death. I was in Pennsylvania for Grandpa's funeral when I first suspected I was pregnant. Such a sad time and yet such joy in learning of the new life. How conflicting. And now, just sad again.

I find peace in knowing they are together. I smile, picturing them square dancing together in heaven.

Happy?

Happy Birthday?!?!?! Really!?!?!
I'm 32 today. I should have a baby in my arms.

No birthday will ever be the same after yours, sweet little Avery.

Even though your gone, you are the best gift I have ever received!

Everything After Avery

It does seem now that everything can be defined in before and after.

Lightning Crashes

"Yesterday father, you fathered me.

Today dear mother, you birthed me.

I was there, you were there

We all stood witness.

I heard your whispers,

that you love me.

I heard you tell each other

how beautiful I was viewed

in my eternal quietude.

I even felt your soft caress

as you held me to your breast.

On this day, do not mourn for me.

With ethereal grace I have a name.

I have a home, I have a life...

To live through all eternity."

~Author Unknown

“Imagine a love so strong that saying hello and goodbye in the same day was worth the sorrow.”

-Author unknown